I woke up at about 2:30 this morning with the uncontrollable urge to hastily remove the entire contents of my stomach. I did so, rather begrudgingly, and went back to a fitful night of sleep.
I think that my falling off the bandwagon has finally caught up with me. I'm not feeling my best by any stretch of the imagination. I've gained weight, I feel ambiently ill most of the time, and my energy levels have suffered. I'm having a hard time staying motivated (obviously), so I'm going to try to join a support group called Vegan Hopefuls, being hosted by the blog maven of Vegan Hope. I hope I get accepted, and hope it is the last little nudge that I need to get up and moving, and making the changes that I need to make.
Wish me luck.
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Thursday, March 25, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Doin' the Time Warp
It seems that time has gotten away from me once more. This is the first lazy afternoon in a few weeks that I've really had to myself, and it's rather nice. I just haven't had the time, or frankly the energy lately to plan meals, much less vegetarian ones.
What have I been up to, then?
We've been steadily sorting out the estate of the deceased Aunt, and are taking care of disbursing things as necessary to her other family members. Something that quickly became apparent was that my mother-in-law, who was this Aunt's caretaker and companion for 15 years, needs a place to live after all the dust settles. It just makes sense for her to move in with us, and we were planning on moving when our lease was up, anyway. So we looked for a larger place ... and found one!
It's a spacious little house for rent in an awesome neighborhood, not too far from where we currently live. It was built in the 1920's, and is about double the square-footage than what our current apartment is. We're keeping our awesome roommate, and taking on my mother-in-law. We're getting a screamin' deal on the rent, and the landlords seem like really nice people. And you know what else? They said I can plant things!!! I'm beside myself! I haven't had a garden since I lived at home in High School! I've already figured out what I'll plant in the front yard. Maybe this planting-season I'll leave it at that, and do the back yard next spring. (We'll see, though. :D).
So we're getting our affairs in order to move. As soon as we put the deposit down on the house (this Friday), we can start moving our boxes in, which is extremely convenient since my mother-in-law has to be out of her current place by the end of March (and the move-in date for the New Place isn't until April 30th because of our current lease).
All of this has been extremely sapping on both of us, and I've really had to take my own advice from my previous post. Taking a few minutes to myself to meditate and to commune with the Goddess every day has been invaluable. Some days it comes more easily than others - there are nights where all I want to do is crawl into bed and pull the covers over my head! But I carve out at least 5 minutes for meditation, and am really benefiting from it.
Soon, very soon, I'll get my rear in gear and start back on the path of Vegetarianism. But for now, I'm trying to keep my head above water during a very stressful and busy time.
What have I been up to, then?
We've been steadily sorting out the estate of the deceased Aunt, and are taking care of disbursing things as necessary to her other family members. Something that quickly became apparent was that my mother-in-law, who was this Aunt's caretaker and companion for 15 years, needs a place to live after all the dust settles. It just makes sense for her to move in with us, and we were planning on moving when our lease was up, anyway. So we looked for a larger place ... and found one!
It's a spacious little house for rent in an awesome neighborhood, not too far from where we currently live. It was built in the 1920's, and is about double the square-footage than what our current apartment is. We're keeping our awesome roommate, and taking on my mother-in-law. We're getting a screamin' deal on the rent, and the landlords seem like really nice people. And you know what else? They said I can plant things!!! I'm beside myself! I haven't had a garden since I lived at home in High School! I've already figured out what I'll plant in the front yard. Maybe this planting-season I'll leave it at that, and do the back yard next spring. (We'll see, though. :D).
So we're getting our affairs in order to move. As soon as we put the deposit down on the house (this Friday), we can start moving our boxes in, which is extremely convenient since my mother-in-law has to be out of her current place by the end of March (and the move-in date for the New Place isn't until April 30th because of our current lease).
All of this has been extremely sapping on both of us, and I've really had to take my own advice from my previous post. Taking a few minutes to myself to meditate and to commune with the Goddess every day has been invaluable. Some days it comes more easily than others - there are nights where all I want to do is crawl into bed and pull the covers over my head! But I carve out at least 5 minutes for meditation, and am really benefiting from it.
Soon, very soon, I'll get my rear in gear and start back on the path of Vegetarianism. But for now, I'm trying to keep my head above water during a very stressful and busy time.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
The hand of death
There was a death in my wife's extended family this past weekend. It has affected us all, in many different ways. Merry was close to this aunt, but hasn't really mourned her loss fully, as she has been busy taking care of her mother's needs. Her mother was this aunt's caretaker and companion for about 15 years, and is beside herself with grief and worry about what the future holds.
I am in an interesting position to be of assisstance to the whole family, especially my wife. I can finally be there for her the way she was there for me through my father's untimely death, and it is an opprotunity that I am grateful to take. It is challenging at times to center myself at such an energy-charged time, but I have still been spending a few minutes per day in front of my altar, taking the time to give thanks to the Goddess for my many blessings, and to pray that both of us will have the strength to shoulder this burden - together.
This experience, despite all the painful feelings it has brought up for both of us, has served to strengthen our relationship, our bond, and our resolve to look at our many blessings - instead of dwelling in the negativity that sometimes seems to surround us.
Taking the time to actively give thanks to your Higher Power, whoever it may be, is something I can't stress the importance of enough. Not only does it draw you closer to the Loving Divine that surrounds each of us, it serves as a wake-up call, a reminder to your Self that, hey, things ain't all THAT bad!
Try it for a few days. See if it doesn't change your perspective, even just a little. Sometimes "a little" is all it takes to tip the scale, after all.
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I am in an interesting position to be of assisstance to the whole family, especially my wife. I can finally be there for her the way she was there for me through my father's untimely death, and it is an opprotunity that I am grateful to take. It is challenging at times to center myself at such an energy-charged time, but I have still been spending a few minutes per day in front of my altar, taking the time to give thanks to the Goddess for my many blessings, and to pray that both of us will have the strength to shoulder this burden - together.
This experience, despite all the painful feelings it has brought up for both of us, has served to strengthen our relationship, our bond, and our resolve to look at our many blessings - instead of dwelling in the negativity that sometimes seems to surround us.
Taking the time to actively give thanks to your Higher Power, whoever it may be, is something I can't stress the importance of enough. Not only does it draw you closer to the Loving Divine that surrounds each of us, it serves as a wake-up call, a reminder to your Self that, hey, things ain't all THAT bad!
Try it for a few days. See if it doesn't change your perspective, even just a little. Sometimes "a little" is all it takes to tip the scale, after all.
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